Healing is not something that happens overnight, it’s not
something that happens after a week or even a month, and sometimes it hasn’t
even happened after six months. That’s
where I am, six months after I was stabbed in the back by my best friend, and I
still haven’t healed. I’ve said probably
200 times that I’m over it, I’m fine, it’s her lose, but in the end, I’m not
over it and I’m not fine. The wounds we receive
at the hands of another through their words, actions, lies and gossip are a lot
different than the wounds our bodies receive.
I have had my fair share of bumps and bruises, scrapes and stitches, but
all those wounds began healing immediately after the wound was opened. A wound on our soul is not so easy to heal,
it’s not an automatic system our body has that just kicks into action as soon
as it receives the message that we are injured.
When our souls are damaged it takes time to heal, it takes venting, and
breaking-down, screaming and crying, and praying to overcome the hurt and anger
that you have inside. It’s been six
months since my soul was wounded, I have had more bad days than good, I have
felt alone and betrayed, I have felt heart break, and hate and anger. I have struggled for six long months, I have
broken down, screamed, cried and prayed, and I feel a little better each day,
but there is still a long road ahead to feeling like I’m okay again. They say time heals all wounds, and I agree
with that. Time does heal all wounds,
but those wounds leave scars, they leave weak spots in our souls that will
never be the same. I’m hoping that my
wounds are healed sooner rather than later so I can start having more good days
than bad. Today I went down during the
invitation of our church service to pray for healing to take place in me, I had
a sweet friend come down and pray with me on the steps of the alter. That simple act helped me more than she could
ever imagine, it gave me hope.
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- Alley Tiller
- I am a wife, mother of 3, and stepmother to 2. I'm a full time student, chef, chauffeur, make-up artist, hair stylist, boo-boo kisser, secretary, maid service, personal shopper, life coach, professional advice giver, masseuse, party planner, story teller, geekery expert and a professional hugger.
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4 comments:
I'm glad you're working toward finding your peace, Alley. And welcome to the blogging world; it's my happy place!
I really do hope that you can find your peace. We both have this friend and you know she did not do this, I have known her for a while and she is a great person so move on or move away.
Dearest Samantha, while I realize that some people that may read my blog might know the person that I am referring to in this post, I'm not calling any names, nor did I say directly what she has done to me. I don't know who you are, and therefore, you cannot understand the situation in which I have been dealing with over the past 6 months. I am sure that you would agree that there are always two sides to a story. While clearly you have heard the one side, you couldn't have heard mine, because I don't know who you are. This post is about the journey that I have been on in the process of healing the wounds left on my soul and trying to get back to the person that I was, and not directly about any wrongs that were done to me. The friend in which you are referring has confided in me some of her darkest secrets (and let me tell you, there are some really juicy ones), and because I have chosen the higher path, I will not reveal those secrets which would enlighten everyone to the true nature of her character. I assure you that she is not the innocent, sweet, little victim that she is playing the role of so well. As for moving away, I have no intentions of allowing someone to bully me out of the area in which I live and have raised my children. This is MY home and I will continue living my life here. As for you, if you do not like the things that I have to say on my blog, might I suggest you not reading it. Thanks, Alley Tiller
Dear Alley I would love to hear what you have to say but however I think we know how it would go, you would say she done something that your own sibling has done which you refuse to acknowledge. Than it would be some other juicy made up story about her in which you would think up something because this is what you do. I will not respond anymore because I dont want my friend bothered with your ignorance, but I will be seeing you around and hear these sad sobbing stories in which you tell so well. With that said best of luck Dearest Alley and I think I will keep the true friend I have.
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